We all love the fantasy world, especially the world that we weave in our minds. We love the world of books , movies ,theatre .There is a sense of magic in it . We often say kaash aisa Hota ,toh Mai aisa Karti , Zindagi alag hi Hoti. I too love that world but actually obsessed with that world. I do want to forget the real world and wanted to play some characters of that world. We always get fascinated by some reel characters and real characters of life and wanted to be like them . This Corona quarantine has changed the entire dynamics of the world. What will happen next , no one can predict.The one thing that Initially I did was to simply distract myself from phone , movies ,social media . I started seeing life that these things are temporary pleasures , all these relations , family , even this body is also not ours , we are jst small energy of light called soul. I started living my life that way. I thought I will adopt spirituality , and will improve myself , but then I started missing myself , I was the happiest, person dreaming , talking and weaving stories in my mind which means I was physically present but mentally was always somewhere else. I started taking spirituality as a serious stuff .but then something inside me asked a question ‘Is it going a Right way ? I started taking spirituality as a game which means I adopted it in a new fashion that help me to grow rather than doing opposite.
I figured out , Death is the ultimate reality and no one can escape from that. Everyone have to die one day. I started understanding spirituality , it tells be in present , think positive , atleat remember urself what’s Ur true nature is . So I did same way . Instead of diving deeper in spirituality. So in morning and evening when I pray I do a self talk that this body is my costume and I am a small energy , who is using this costume ,and this is not my real home, I have came here , it’s a drama stage , doing my play as a character , and Everyone around me are also that tiny energy particle , Thus this whole world is a family . And God the supreme soul , is a father, with whom I talk and tell my problems and also get the solutions in form of my intution. I became more empathetic , kind and I also started valuing myself keeping in mind that , this game is going to end at anytime so let’s live it fully. So I watch movies , I dream , I dance , I act , I do everything but in balance.
Before I used to spend hours and hours on mobile phone , thinking I would be like them one day, dreaming the entire day and my day used to get over like this. But now I wake up do my prayer , water my plants , do exercise , eat healthy and drink plenty of water. Talk to my friends , study and help mum and dad , tease my elder sister sometime .spend quality me time. Pray before every meal and also before I go to bed. I started practicing gratitude and it’s really healing me. About my entertainment part . I watch movies but not continusly , in between I take breaks , take a walk or eat something so that my eyes not get tired and thus on weekends I watch movies instead of watching movie everyday. I watch shows like malgudi days, episode wise , instead watching entire episode everyday. Through this way I started inculcating patience, take care of my eyes my limiting time on mobile screen and I value that entertainment time where I jst watch swami and his stories.
I realized spirituality is actually a tool of Escapism , which I am using to escape from my stupid overthinking about past and future and trying to be in present and be happy. I am able to use this tool to escape sometime from this world , and be their with my true self. I do often fear , because I am still a human not a monk . I love my family , loved ones . But now whenever that fear comes , I surrender myself to the almighty and I jst know whatever happened , happened for the best , whatever is happening and whatever is going to happen will be for good.
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swati 